Somehow after having unusual relief from heavy duty nerve pain following the Vitamin B injection yesterday, today the bodily pain is all the more heavy. I'm having trouble managing it; distracting myself through manual labor is not all that successful. I've found myself back down on my floor bed.
Perhaps it is because yesterday afternoon and evening, the pain level was so drastically altered--nerve pain less than in a very long time, a blessed break--that the comparison to back-to-tough-pain makes the pain seem all the worse.
I can tell from what the doctor told me would be signals if my body already had enough B vitamin--especially B-12 which is directly correlated with nerve health. This vitamin is used with success to bring relief for varying degrees of nerve pain. Temporary, yes, but I have not had any of the signals that my body had enough already. In fact, my body is deficient, obviously. This surprises as I've taken two B-complexes daily for several years (ever since a doctor elsewhere told me with the level of pain I carry, I should double the B-complex) plus take an added B-12 capsule and B-6 capsule.
But it is the difficulty managing the burning nerve pain today that has me rather physically ill, nauseous, and not able to diligently unpack boxes or do any intelligent spiritual reading. I'm absolutely fatigued from pain. I find myself wishing I could have another B-12 injection today--as I'd like to have the pain-lessening experienced yesterday!
All I can do is consider in basic, human ways, God. All i can do is pray and praise in simple ways, and to take temporal stock in details of the beautiful moments of this unfolding day God gives so lovingly and generously.
The temporal pain situation has me considering that perhaps it is best to not have another B-12 injection, for the pain seems all the worse when the benefit wears off. Perhaps just deal with the reality--well, I've been down this path previously when I'd get some temporary pain relief. The treatment becomes a distraction and a cost plus then the re-adaptation of mind and body (and emotions) when back to the pain grind.
I hope to find out if there is some point in time in which my body will be saturated with B-12 so that the effects are gone the next day. Same with the pain doctor planning to try epidural injections into the neck and upper thoracic spine at the next appointment. He wants to see if that will help relieve some pain. Worth a try, but all these compassionate attempts to relieve the major pain I suffer, are temporary.
Back to the reality: Only God Is Forever.
All else is temporary--pain, no pain, life, time, temporal beings and temporal things.
This morning God did give reassurance yet again that He has me where He wants me. The quite elderly sellers' daughter returned a phone call and message I'd left, hoping the number I found was hers. The mailman is concerned and sincere in wanting to keep contact with the elderly man who with his wife had this house built 24 years ago. He is a retired doctor who'd spent the last 25 years of his career as a missionary physician, and from what the mailman tells me, a man of prayer and who the mailman wants his son and daughter-in-law to meet.
So I've been researching and making effort to locate the couple, and that led me to their daughter. She called this morning, explaining she and her doctor husband have been on a brief vacation. We talked some, and I explained how I've felt all along that God chose this place for me, and that the house always "felt good" to me--had a peaceful and prayerful ambiance.
As we talked, she asked if she could tell her dad about how it came about that I found this house, as he'd want to know, along with her mother (although she has had some strokes and not as alert). I said I'm a person of prayer but would appreciate her parents' prayers as I struggle with pain from a drunk driver accident years ago and am being referred to a surgeon for possible additional surgery.
She asked the name of my pain doctor and the name of the surgeon to whom I'm being referred. She said I'm in excellent hands with the former, and exclaimed "BINGO!" with the surgeon, emphasizing that her radiologist husband is familiar with all the surgeons, and this particular one is outstanding. Turns out, also, that she, too, has her doctorate in orthotics and prosthetics.
Delightful conversation and laughter, positive interest, prayerful bonds highlight those of us in the Body of Christ! They have open invitation to come by any time to see the home that was lovingly built, lived in, and well-tended in the last major phase of the couple's life. The daughter mentioned the wonderful memories made here not only for her parents but for all of them including grandchildren.
When I'm able, hopefully yet today, I will write another note to Alex the mailman, to let him know we've had victory in locating the elderly couple of whom he so admires and does not want to lose contact. The daughter, close to my age, has given the phone number and name of assisted living facility, with only the suggestion that I prepare Alex that her dad has started to have short term memory loss. Alex must remind him of their friendship initially, so her dad's memory is jogged.
God reassures us in small events and encounters, in the details, of every day life. Alex will be reassured, the elderly couple will be reassured, the daughter is reassured, and I am marvelously reassured that God did choose this hermitage for me and that the pain doctor and surgeon are excellent and who the doctor daughter and her doctor husband would recommend, themselves, and there her elderly dad, ever a physician, will pray for me.
Hermits and perhaps especially one who is also a spiritual leper, definitely need all the prayers anyone is kind enough to pray! I never hesitate to ask for prayers, for I so very much need them--such as today to manage the extreme increase in pain compared to the marvelous lessening of some nerve pain I enjoyed yesterday. Perhaps if I did not have heavier pain today, I'd not have noticed nor appreciated as much if at all, the delights of God's personalized reassurance.
And again, to be aware of God's reassurance is a blessing that lifts the soul beyond the body. This is true for everyone of us. God reassures us in visible and tangible ways, within, without, and all about.
Perhaps it is because yesterday afternoon and evening, the pain level was so drastically altered--nerve pain less than in a very long time, a blessed break--that the comparison to back-to-tough-pain makes the pain seem all the worse.
I can tell from what the doctor told me would be signals if my body already had enough B vitamin--especially B-12 which is directly correlated with nerve health. This vitamin is used with success to bring relief for varying degrees of nerve pain. Temporary, yes, but I have not had any of the signals that my body had enough already. In fact, my body is deficient, obviously. This surprises as I've taken two B-complexes daily for several years (ever since a doctor elsewhere told me with the level of pain I carry, I should double the B-complex) plus take an added B-12 capsule and B-6 capsule.
But it is the difficulty managing the burning nerve pain today that has me rather physically ill, nauseous, and not able to diligently unpack boxes or do any intelligent spiritual reading. I'm absolutely fatigued from pain. I find myself wishing I could have another B-12 injection today--as I'd like to have the pain-lessening experienced yesterday!
All I can do is consider in basic, human ways, God. All i can do is pray and praise in simple ways, and to take temporal stock in details of the beautiful moments of this unfolding day God gives so lovingly and generously.
The temporal pain situation has me considering that perhaps it is best to not have another B-12 injection, for the pain seems all the worse when the benefit wears off. Perhaps just deal with the reality--well, I've been down this path previously when I'd get some temporary pain relief. The treatment becomes a distraction and a cost plus then the re-adaptation of mind and body (and emotions) when back to the pain grind.
I hope to find out if there is some point in time in which my body will be saturated with B-12 so that the effects are gone the next day. Same with the pain doctor planning to try epidural injections into the neck and upper thoracic spine at the next appointment. He wants to see if that will help relieve some pain. Worth a try, but all these compassionate attempts to relieve the major pain I suffer, are temporary.
Back to the reality: Only God Is Forever.
All else is temporary--pain, no pain, life, time, temporal beings and temporal things.
This morning God did give reassurance yet again that He has me where He wants me. The quite elderly sellers' daughter returned a phone call and message I'd left, hoping the number I found was hers. The mailman is concerned and sincere in wanting to keep contact with the elderly man who with his wife had this house built 24 years ago. He is a retired doctor who'd spent the last 25 years of his career as a missionary physician, and from what the mailman tells me, a man of prayer and who the mailman wants his son and daughter-in-law to meet.
So I've been researching and making effort to locate the couple, and that led me to their daughter. She called this morning, explaining she and her doctor husband have been on a brief vacation. We talked some, and I explained how I've felt all along that God chose this place for me, and that the house always "felt good" to me--had a peaceful and prayerful ambiance.
As we talked, she asked if she could tell her dad about how it came about that I found this house, as he'd want to know, along with her mother (although she has had some strokes and not as alert). I said I'm a person of prayer but would appreciate her parents' prayers as I struggle with pain from a drunk driver accident years ago and am being referred to a surgeon for possible additional surgery.
She asked the name of my pain doctor and the name of the surgeon to whom I'm being referred. She said I'm in excellent hands with the former, and exclaimed "BINGO!" with the surgeon, emphasizing that her radiologist husband is familiar with all the surgeons, and this particular one is outstanding. Turns out, also, that she, too, has her doctorate in orthotics and prosthetics.
Delightful conversation and laughter, positive interest, prayerful bonds highlight those of us in the Body of Christ! They have open invitation to come by any time to see the home that was lovingly built, lived in, and well-tended in the last major phase of the couple's life. The daughter mentioned the wonderful memories made here not only for her parents but for all of them including grandchildren.
When I'm able, hopefully yet today, I will write another note to Alex the mailman, to let him know we've had victory in locating the elderly couple of whom he so admires and does not want to lose contact. The daughter, close to my age, has given the phone number and name of assisted living facility, with only the suggestion that I prepare Alex that her dad has started to have short term memory loss. Alex must remind him of their friendship initially, so her dad's memory is jogged.
God reassures us in small events and encounters, in the details, of every day life. Alex will be reassured, the elderly couple will be reassured, the daughter is reassured, and I am marvelously reassured that God did choose this hermitage for me and that the pain doctor and surgeon are excellent and who the doctor daughter and her doctor husband would recommend, themselves, and there her elderly dad, ever a physician, will pray for me.
Hermits and perhaps especially one who is also a spiritual leper, definitely need all the prayers anyone is kind enough to pray! I never hesitate to ask for prayers, for I so very much need them--such as today to manage the extreme increase in pain compared to the marvelous lessening of some nerve pain I enjoyed yesterday. Perhaps if I did not have heavier pain today, I'd not have noticed nor appreciated as much if at all, the delights of God's personalized reassurance.
And again, to be aware of God's reassurance is a blessing that lifts the soul beyond the body. This is true for everyone of us. God reassures us in visible and tangible ways, within, without, and all about.
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