Catholic Hermit: Love in Prayer

From the Catechism of the Catholic Church, this on "prayer" and pivotal importance of love:

2658  "Hope does not disappoint us, because God's love had been poured into our hearts by the Holy Spirit who has been given to us."  Prayer, formed by the liturgical life, draws everything into the love by which we are loved in Christ and which enables us to respond to him by loving as he has loved us.  Love is the source of prayer; whoever draws from it reaches the summit of prayer.  In the words of the Cure of Ars:

"I love you, O my God, and my only desire is to love you until the last breath of my life.  I love you, O my infinitely lovable God, and I would rather die loving you, than live without loving you.  I love you, Lord, and the only grace I ask is to love you eternally.... My God, if my tongue cannot say in every moment that I love you, I want my heart to repeat it to you as often as I draw breath."

What a beautiful desire: Love of God.  The greatest commandment:  Love God above all else. (And outflowing from the greatest: Love others as oneself.) 

I've done next to nothing today but rest in the pain.  The weather is not helping the spinal issues.  It is not easy to just let go of even a small amount of focus in order to pass through yet more hours of nothing much.  Am I really unable to do some minor tasks?  Am I truly too weary from pain to read or write something spiritually purposeful?

Am I too easily distracted--allowing superficial outer means to distract me from pain--to even pray with deep love?  Or is pain not of my own doing or choosing, a form of love of God?

I hope it is, for then I have much love of, for, with, through, and in Him.

I do hope it is not laziness on my part, or a preference to distract from the depths of pain to the point of weeping from pain or despairing in pain.  I hope and pray that pain and the seeming inability to "do" or "be" much else today is love as the source of unspoken and at times unmindful prayer with God.

I pray I am not deceived in this.  I wonder if my mission in life is simply to love God and not to be concerned about some mission using gifts and talents given nor to do other than to suffer and love?

At most and at least, God bless His Real Presence in us!  God Is Love!