The drill-whip injury to the right hand, somehow got re-injured late yesterday. Excruciating pain. I tell ya, it's kind of a blessing because it takes the mind off the left knee/calf injury of last June, and the deteriorating condition of my spinal fusion and rods--awaiting surgery. I may just have to get into the pain doctor soon so he can refer me to a hand surgeon.
Was supposed to have it operated on a year ago December, a year after the injury, but I needed the hand to finish the hermitage where I was, in order to get out from under what I've termed "death therapy." Great experience to die to self, be stripped down to more austerity as a hermit, to rely more fully on the Lord God.
Thankfully I have the brace I wore then, and found it even though not unpacked in this hermitage: Solus Deus. Had just uncovered the various braces and bands, thanks be to God!
I simply cannot write much; but I figured to report this development as it is causing me all the more to consider that God is allowing the added suffering. I just need to switch gears, accept the pain, seek Him in the pain, and let lots of temporal aspects slide by the wayside.
And that means to focus more on the "ora" and less the "labora."
It will be good for me to be forced out of what I think is a case of acedia--spiritual sloth! The priest confessor last week was not convinced, as he thinks the suffering is worth a lot. But of course, I think I should be aligning and embracing better within the suffering.
Hermits are humans, of course and after all!
Last night I was tempted to get to an ER as the pain in the right thumb base was so severe. However, reality comes into the situation, and I just need to wait it out until I can get a referral to a hand surgeon. The only reason I will contact the pain doctor is that he seems to know who are the best surgeons for various body parts. Pain meds don't really touch this level of pain much, so no need in that regard.
Just keep it still. Don't move the thumb--at all.
Gotta try to mow the yard, though. One can pray for and consider people who have lost right hands or right arms, and realize if they do not have a prosthesis, they learn to use left hands and left arms. Resiliency is needed in the temporal and spiritual realms, both.
But I think the Lord with this latest pain affliction, is asking of me to examine more fully one of the Nine S' of my hermit life: Stillness. That, also, seems to be what is needed not only physically or by body part, but within my mind, heart, and spirit. Just some stillness in God's Presence--must be!
God bless His Real Presence in us. God bless you all on tomorrow's Palm Sunday! Hosanna!
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