Having so much physical pain today--after yesterday being able to do more weeding but worn out from it--I came upon a Mass Scripture reading from some day last week.
Mercy, I glanced at a couple of previous, recent posts, and they reveal the the deep inner pain of heartache, losses, realities, and struggle to function with high levels of physical pain, beyond what medications can mask.
Here is the verse. St. Paul wrote it.
Think of what is above, not of what is on earth.
For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.
I listened this morning to a presidential candidate speak, and he veered into motivational remarks regarding success in life. Momentum is very important. Advice was given to the audience, mostly of younger people but appropriate for anyone in the world or hidden from the world. If one is losing one's momentum, slow down and consider doing something other. But momentum is key for success no matter one's vocation in life.
For a consecrated Catholic hermit who suffers great physical pain, momentum is necessary when it comes to living conditions. I will consider over a period of time, if the physical pain is prohibiting momentum to perform the manual labor, including the previously-beneficial gardening, or if the Lord is signaling a change in externals. In the meantime, as the speaker also included: Never give up.
The Lord Jesus Christ is the author and perfecter of our faith. This is a series of deaths this hermit has experienced in the final weeks of Lent, and yesterday while praying while weeding, for the Lord to heal the wounded heart and fatigued body, it does indeed seem that I have died, and my life is hidden with Christ in God.
And not to lose that momentum, either--not to lose the momentum of being dead to the world, dead to the typical ways of existing, but having life hidden with Christ in God.
God bless His Real Presence in us! Love God above all things, and love one another.