Perpetual Humility

This past week the nothing Catholic hermit has been praying about humility. A kind of understanding crept in, over the days and nights, formulating into a suggestion of what is the pride of the nothing, and what is the perpetual humility.

The confessor had told the nothing that God would let it know what the pride is that the nothing senses but cannot specify.

First the answer came in the realization that the perpetual humility is that the nothing can never love God enough, or do enough for God, or be enough for God. Not on this earth, anyway.

Next, the nothing realized that the pride is in thinking that the nothing could love God enough, or do enough for God, or be enough for God. And the pride is in thinking in this perspective, of the self doing the loving, doing, and being.

The nothing Catholic hermit talked it over with the spiritual da. Then later it saw the regular confessor and also asked him if this is the perpetual humility for which the nothing had asked for prayers. He said that yes, this is the reality that we can never come to that perfection of loving, doing or being for God....

And then the nothing asked about this suggestion which had come in prayer during the day: Is it also true that we can only love God to the degree commensurate to the understanding and awareness of the degree God loves us? Is there a direct correlation with how much we fathom God's love for us, to how much we can love God?

Well, then, the nothing Catholic hermit is going to ponder not only the perpetual humility, but to consider often and deeply, and be bathed in the warm and growing comprehension, of how much God loves the nothing!

For it is by God's love for the nothing that the nothing is even at all able to love God, or to love God's creatures, God's creation. It is only by God's immense, infinite, and infinitesimal love that the nothing is able to love its enemies, to love suffering, to love God to whatever degree God wills of the nothing, through the nothing's expanding awareness of of His love.

The waves of awareness wash gently, quietly, and endlessly once the nothing listens within to the presentation of variances and levels of God's love. His love is everywhere like the air, and everywhere like the soul's perceptions within and without. The soul begins to open its senses to God's love, and those senses extend outward into the created world but very much so inward into the dark depths of the Sacred Heart where utmost illumination of God's love is to be found.

And from within to without, the love is expressed by God for and in an through the nothing, and the nothing is then able to inch-love back to God: through, with, and in His love.

Pondering God's perpetual love begins to presume itself upon ponderings of perpetual humliity and pride. It is through desire to perpetually love God to the degree of His perpetual love, and known of God, that the nothing appreciates the perpetual humility of being not that which it loves except by His love.

Last night after Mass, the nothing discussed these matters with another priest. It is good to ask questions of the faith, of thoughts that are formulating, for the priests can be of immense help with their theological background and the power of their Holy Orders.

He said the nothing didn't have it quite right on the part about loving God to the degree the nothing can fathom God's love. He pointed out (and nothing had just finished a book on obedience) that it is in obedience that we are able to love, and that obedience brings us into God's will.

Jesus showed us this: it was not how much He as God comprehended the Father's love but that He did the Father's will, was in complete union with the Father's will. He was/is obedient to that will, and thus was/is in union, and of course is Love Itself. So if we are obedient to God's will, and this through the commandments and in the many little ways each day of being obedient to the Church and commandments of God, and to strive to love and live the virtues, then we will become in union with God's will, in bits and pieces and hopefully more and more.

Of course, our ability to love is from God and through God; and our love is a reflection of His love. How that reflection can be magnified seems to be through obedience to God's will. Once we are more and more obedient and united to God's will, our will having died to itself, then we begin to fathom God's love for us, but it is not us, then. It is then us in God, so it is that we fathom God's love in God.